No One Will Ever Know

To: Amelia, Elijah and Addison

Many a lonely moment;

Often a silent tear;

But always a beautiful memory

of THREE who were so dear.

Their memory is our keepsake

From which we shall never part

God has them in His keeping.

We have them in our hearts,

Friends may think we have forgotten

When at times they see us smile,

Little do they know the heartache

That our smile hides all the while.

We mourn for them in silence,

No one can see us weep

But many silent tears are shed

While others are asleep.

God gave us strength to fight it

And courage to bear the blow,

But what it meant to lose them

NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW

Author Unknown

I found this poem and it brought tears to my eyes. I think it speaks volumes as to what Scott and I feel but can't explain...as each day passes we long for our children that cannot be here with us and because of that we will never be the same. There is comfort in knowing they are in Heaven with God but no place is better than here on earth in our arms.

Amelia, Eli and Addy - you are in our thoughts forever and in our hearts for always. Love, Mommy

Cleveland

Thanks to our good friend Tara, Scott and I were able to get away to one of our favorite places, Cleveland! Tara got us a nice little get away package which included a hotel room and tickets to a Cavs game Saturday night.

It was really nice to get away and just 'have fun'. The weather was great in C-Town, 64 degrees and cloudy but nice and warm. We grabbed some lunch and cocktails then walked around the not so great mall. Then we headed over to Corner Alley, a cool new bar/bowling alley. We grabbed some cocktails and bowled a few games. Downtown Cleveland is absolutely packed the night of games so all of the restaurants and bars were just over flowing with people. It's just a fun place to be!

The games was great! We won, thank god. We got to have our stadium hotdogs that I just love!

After the game we walked back to the hotel and grabbed some dessert and a few more cocktails before heading to bed, I mean before heading to the room to catch the Cavs highlights on Sports Center. :) Love you babes!

We'll Love You Forever

We'll Love You Forever
We Like You For Always
As Long As We're Living
Our Babies You'll Be

Amelia, Elijah and Addison

Mommy and Daddy can not thank you enough for making us your parents...we are forever blessed because of you.

P.S. Daddy has promised Mommy that he will upload the beautiful slide show we put together so we can share it with all of our friends and family. Although it is very hard not to keep everything to ourselves, Mommy (and Daddy) wants to share you with the world.

Our Precious Babies

To our Friends and Family:

Amelia Dolores, Elijah Gregory, and Addison Marie Hagley were called home to Heaven. Their time on earth was brief, but memorable and we cherished every single second we got to spend with them.

Our babies were beautiful and perfect in every way. Amelia was 10.0 inches and weighed 1 lb .5 ounces. Eli was 10.5 inches and 1 lb 2 ounces and Addy was 9 inches and .8 lbs.

We don't understand how. We don't understand why. And we don't understand where we go from here. All that we know is that we loved our babies very much.

We want to thank everyone for their kind words, prayers and well wishes. Your support helped us get through our daily struggles and it means the world to us.

One day at time, one foot in front of the other we will get through this.

Love Scott and Michelle

The Pups first visit to the hospital!!!

Sunday the pups had their first (of many) visits to the hospital to visit their Mom!! It was more than great to see them!! I miss them soo much. It was great to have them snuggle up to me for a few hours. Since Sunday's mark a new week for us we will continue to celebrate those days with a visit from our pups!

Unfortunately, I don't have much new news to report, which in a good way is good news! I was started on Magnesium Sulfate on Friday afternoon, this is given by IV which sucks but ah well..the first 2 days were a little rough, the magnesium comes with some fun side effects, luckily, the side effects I was experiencing have subsided!

We are getting more sleep now that I am on the Magnesium. The nurse comes in only once a night to change the IV bag instead of a few times like they used to when I was on the oral meds. With the Mag my blood is drawn daily to check levels and they do that between 5-7 in the morning, the resident doctor stops in around 6. So from 5-7, I don't sleep much!!

Not sure when our next u/s is but we will send an update when we have one!

Love you all!

A good friend of our sent me this picture and it definitely cheered me up!!! Thanks Darrin for always making us laugh!!!