We have spirit...

yes we do, we have spirit how bout you!?!?!?!?!? Cavs are taking it all the way baby!!!

Words Can't Describe..

Words cannot describe the wave of emotion that flows through every inch of your body as you drive into the cemetery where your children are buried, I couldn't help but think that from now on when we want to spend time with our children this is where we have to go...as I sat on the cold earth and clutched Scott's leg we both just sobbed and sobbed. As the tears streamed down our faces we took turns talking to our children and sharing what was our first Easter with our new family.

I couldn't help but think how much it sucked that most people got to spend Easter with their families today and to an extent even we did but at the end of the day our family wasn't all together, we wont ever be, there will always be 3 missing. It was very important to us that we stop by and talk to our kids today. It will always be important to me that they aren't alone on the holidays, god knows we would give anything to have them with us.

I guess up unto this point I haven't thought about how hard the holidays were going to be this first year and really for the rest of our lives. Holiday's bring about soo many different emotions as you go through the motions of the day, eating, drinking and laughing, I am numb and all that keeps repeating over and over in my head is "this isn't how it is supposed to be" and "I want our beans here".

Happy Easter babies, Mommy and Daddy love you so much and miss you with all of our being.

Love
Mommy

My Beautiful Niece

Ok, I had to steal this picture from my brother's blog because my niece is just so adorable. She has the chubbiest cheeks ever and I just want to munch on them!

I am very jealous because my family is heading down to San Antonio on Friday to visit my two brothers, their wives and my nieces. I don't get to go! :( I am 86 vacation time. Which totally sucks.

I am sending lots of hugs and kisses their way! We love you all so much!